Happy New Year to everyone... take it as if i am wishing you a happy new year apon reading this... so don't expect any mass message from me... i know i sound damn cheap now... but i hate it when everyone replys the message... i would receive multiple identical messages and it can be quite irritating...

Lots to blog about the class chalet i attended few days back... but Photobucket seems to hate my pictures... i've been trying to upload my photos for 2 days already but still fail to succeed... i'm getting quite annoyed by it...

Went to J8 today with my family... I ATE CUP CORN AGAIN!!! damn nice lor... my childhood favourite... my brother and dad was at Mac trying to book tickets for tomorrow... and i was sitting there eating my cup corn... damn nice... i enjoyed every single bit... i just love it...

I'm going to watch 'Deathnote 2' tomorrow evening... in the afternoon, my dad is having a gathering with his friends... i guess it is going to be boring as my dad's friend's children are younger then me... i am expecting a generation gap... the oldest kid there will be as old as my sis only... i'm gonna have to make friends with older people... crap... i'm going to have to answer all thier identical questions...

Damn... i went jamming with Wei Hong, Alvin and Yong Jie... damn fun... although i only practise my pieces this afternoon... and i was playing repeatition parts over and over on the bass... but it was still fun... later in the session, we ran out of things to play as all of us were unprepared... so i decided to practise my finger picking... something which i just learnt the day before... and Wei Hong just join in on the drums... soon after, Yong Jie joined on the bass and whatever he just played just happen to blend into my chords... it was damn nice... the Alvin picked the microphone and started making up lyrics... WE MADE OUR FIRST ORIGINAL MUSIC!!! i'm damn happy... now i am tasked with the job of making the music come alive... not an easy job, but i'll try...

Anyway, i feel pretty fucked up today... i heard lots of ugly facts about some people that played big roles in my life... i feel quite disappointed... i don't know what to do... i don't know what to say... even things that i least expected hppened... what is happening to this world? i'm beginning to regret my actions... am i more of a trouble than help? i really hope what i heard is just a bunch of mindless lies... but the infomation came from a really reliabe person... someone that have never misplace my trust... what the fuck lah... i don't want to think so much already... should i come back next year? i think better not... i feel like a burden to others... i think i shouldn't bother them anymore... so much sacrifices... and this is what we get...

I know i don't like shopping... but it just happen that i went shooping with my bro yesterday and went with Yong Jie today...

Yesterday i went to Bugis... the first think i saw when i exit the MRT station was a crowd on idiotic singaporeans trying to cross the road...



I really don't know what's wrong with them... another traffic light i merely a few metres away and everyone wants to squeeze in the little pavement in the middle of the road... later in the day i was comparing my phone's camera with my bro's 'high-class' camera... we cmapared our camera's zooming ability... when we did that, i found someting else in the picture...



A gay couple... and there were more in the MRT's underpass... damn disgusting... why do people want to do that... go somewhere else and gay lah... you people make my life feel ugly...

Anyway, we wasted a day a bugis as it was too crowded and i could not find what i want... if you ever go shopping with me you'll understand... we went to J8 later and i bought some christmas gift for my section... it pains me to think of it as i have a big section... and it's hard to find something good yet cheap... i spent $42 on the gifts... i used my CNY clothes money ok... the section better feel touched... then my bro loan me money to buy my CNY stuff... then again... i hope he'll regret his actions...

Today i went to Douby Ghout with Yong Jie... we wen to City Music because there is a sales over there... you know my situation now... i am low on cash... i finally got myself a tuner... i bought one 3 years ago, found another on the 8 of April and lost both a week after... how stupid of me... Yong Jie bought a guitar strap... i paid for everything first as i was using NETS... later in the day Yong Jie slowly paid me back and i ended spending every single cent... total i spent $42 today... my heart ached even more... we were like idiots today... after walking in the rain, i had a craving of eating ice kachang... those cold desserts... so i treated Yong Jie to a bowl in order to bribe him along... it was stupid when we both were shivering after eating... like a pair of idiots eating cold food in the rain...

I really want my $300 from the government quick... i need the money... if not i'll have to start paying bank charges... and my parents cannot touch it... if not they will go and invest it... now i'm broke because of all this investments... why don't they let me invest my own money... i can invest them in guitars... who kows i'll bring a bigger profit than those bank investments...

I seemed to be cursed with guitar strings... 3 times i have changed the strings, 3 times someting happen... first 2 times me first string broke... today i wind one of my string the wrong way...when i unwind it, i cut off the curly part and realised that there were no more excess for the string to reach the pegs... what a waste... i gotta to spend another $1.50 on that one string...

I have finally found my handphone cable... so i got all my pictures into my com...

Here are the christmas gifts i had received... Some of the gifts are still wrapped or it is not in as i can't be bothered to go and take photos of them again...


The first gift was from Shi En... and it is also my christmas wish that came true...


A handmade gift from Shi En again...


I received this from Vivian during YCKS's concert...


Some sweet that HongKi was passing around the section... i think it is from Norain...


Another handmade gift from Norain...


Gift from Shi En, Kat and Norain... No picture of the inside... but it is some excersieing tool...


These flowers were from the band after i played my solo...


Some flowers from Mr Kok, Norain and Wei Hong...

The card on it reads...


I still have more gifts... but i'm too lazy to blog them... so give me my presents to me early next year... just kidding...

3 concerts have past since the day i completed my 'O's... quite a tiring week... but it was great... come to think of it, i am beginning to miss my clarinet... i had to return it to the CC for their instrument stock take... i feel kind of empty without it...

Now its the time for me to relax... but nothing is in my favour... tomorrow is christmas... my bro is suppose to plan some outing with my cousins... but till now he had nothing... i have plans for myself too... but what my bro is doing is not helping me a single bit... i want to go and buy strings tomorrow... and start practising early on my guitar... then out of the blue, my bro suggested we go Bugis street for a walk... but it is now confirmed... if nothing is working out by tonight, i'll stick to my own plans...

Christmas is tomorrow... i've gotten most of my gifts... this year is special... i got what i wished for... although it is just a small gift, but it made a difference in my life... Marcus bought me a razor... not the phone, but the blade... for what i don't know... i don't have much facial hair to shave... he also buy me a hairband... but he was slow... i received one from Shi En already... so too bad Marcus... you can keep the Hello Kitty hairband for yourself...

I'm damn bored... listening to the YCKSB concert recordings... the sax ensemble is damn nice... very gentle... very lovely piece... i think i'm in love with it... Someone posted YCKSB's performance on Youtube... my solo was included... till now i still can't find it... but i'm not very happy about...

Oh yeah... not forgetting yesterday's event at Mr Andrew Ng's place... i spent lots of time folding paper boxes... something i learnt from Hong Ki... Elaine, Hong Ki and I folded a total of 29 boxes through the afternoon... not a very wonderful evening when Mr Ng kept on offering me food... for some reason, my stomach had a limit to my food intake... maybe it is because of the time i fell sick before yck's concert and lost alot of weight... it was fun later in the day when we talked about YCKSB's 'Legend'... damn funny...

I finally get get some sleep today... i slept the whole time at my grandma's place... just like every other Sundays... till the day i joined SWO... both have their pros and cons... but my decision is final...

Anyway, Merry Christmas to everyone out there...

How much luckier can i get? my cousin is coming to my school... lots of bad people... my parents want me to watch over him and make sure he don't mix with bad company... the only way to do this is to make him join band... and it will happen... i'll make sure he gets a smooth 4 years in the school...

Thanks to a wall renovation, my house is in chaos... i can't find my cables for my mp3 and handphone... there are lots of things to blog about but i just don't have my materials...

Christmas is different this year... it is the first time i got something i wish for... i've received a hairband from Shi En... and it had been put to full uses... thanks damn lot... you made christmas different...

It had been raining for the past two days... great for sleeping... bad for going to band practises... but sleeping is someting i still don't get... after one concert, another had come...

And i'm back to my weights since the day i feel sick long before the concert... till now i'm still not myself... wish i get fully recovered soon...

The time is now...

Just got infomation that my cousin-in-law had just gave birth to a baby girl last night... that couple damn power... haven't even celebrate their first wedding anniversary already have a baby... they got married last year 18 december... come to think of it, it is the same day as my concert this year... damn... i can't wait to meet the baby...


After a terrible night... my fever finally stayed down... and i can finally walk again... but i feel guilty again... the band is having their band camp today and i had to miss a day for my rest... everyone made sacrifices for the practise... and all i could do is to stay at home and do nothing... haiz...

Looks like my quick recovery methods are not working anymore... i'm damn sick now... and i think i'm dying soon... my life is damn short... went to see a doctor today and got many pills... damn... the pills always get stuck in my throat... i wasted the whole day sleeping today... i really need to attend the band camp... i have a solo to perform on the coming monday... i need to prepare myself... i'm not goning to let my friends down on monday...

I hate christmas... it is the time of the year when my money gets drained... this year i'll be having 2 gift exchange activities... what should i buy? but as far as i'm concern, i want a hairband for christmas... together with an instruction manual... my hair mantainence stuff... but please, i only need one of those... so i don't expect everyone to get me a hairband together... if that happens, i'll feel like a woman...

Anyway, one advise to everyone work till late nights... never eat chocolates when working late... it is because of that that i fell sick... thanks to Marcus for buying me Ricola and Wei Hong for buying bread for me... anyway, today i ahd the best sectionls since the 'O's... i believed what had been done today will make a difference to the section... but there are some damn irrespondsible people who doesn't care about the section's welfare... still play a prank on me when i called... idiots... you guys will pay... trust me...

My plans for a quick recovery is taking effect... in 2 hours, i got rid of a fever... miricle? nah... i went through alot of suffering for that... next is my cough... then my overall health... i better be well before the band camp... i really need the practise...

My annual Christmas gift to the section is still not planned... every year i buy something for my section... this year will not be an easy one... i lack of cash this year... my allowance is draining damn fast and i spent $10 on transport a week... i was thinking of treating the section to pizza... as girls won't eat much due to their common fear of gaining weight... but what i'm afraid now is that there might be girls who doesn't care less about it... if you know what i mean... and Jun Xiang will want to join us if i ever do that... that guy is a monster... his stomach is a bottomless pit... even when he is full, he will still stuff himself... now that is scary... in the end, it all goes back down to money again... damn sad... someone please help... i'm out of ideas...

Doing up a programme booklet is no easy job... especially when you have to juggle work with band... i work till 3am for the past 3 days... and wake up at 10am the next... total i had only slept 16 hours within these 3 days... and i have bad practise from the early afternoon till the night... last night i was on the edge between life and death... i felt damn dizzy and felt like vomitting... worst is that i could not hold a pen without my hand trembling and i could not stand up-right... haiz... this programme booklet better be done before my school's band camp... or i might die during practise...

After 4hrs!!! it's finally out!!! but it is just the first draft...

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THE VERY FIRST COPY!!!

Lucky i'm smart... i can finally save my hair...but first i need someone to teach me how to use a hairband... i used my sis's hairband but it keeps on falling... i think girls head must have some magnetic thing... can hold on to the hairband for almost forever... strange...


Anyway, i'll be having freedom for 3 days starting from next tuesday... my sis is in Hong Kong now... my parents will be joining her next tuesday... hehee... no government... i've been blessed!!!

A small word with a big meaning... haiz... the world lacks of it nowadays... i have been lied to and manipulated multiple times... i feel like an idiot... what's worst is that i had been a victim to girls... only girls... somemore these girls are people which i had expected to be close to... looks like a bond which took years to build is going to be broken by nothing but a bunch of lies... thx for making my life terrible... bloody b****es...

My energy is sucked dry... since the week after my 'O's... band had made my life... ycksb practises on tuesdays, thursdays and fridays... SSW on monday, tuseday and friday nights and whole of saturday... SWO on sundays... Alumni band practise is on wednesday evening... haiz... whole whole week is booked by band activities... i only have my monday and wednesday afternoon free... and i still need time for individual practise... see how pack my schedule is... i don't have time for myself... and i am lacking of my sleep... now i am taking pills to keep myself healthy... not really my kind of thing, but i don't have a choice...

Playing a solo is no easy work... but my practise had paid off... now i am having lots of fun with the band... damn... i feel the drive...

SWO is also getting fun... after i had practised the pieces, the fun started coming in... i am really enjoying myself... but the disadvantage is that my sleeping day is gone... the day of the week where my lack of sleep is replaced... now its gone... i hope i'll adapt quick... i don't want to fall sick and waste a day of practise again...

Someone please tell me that you want to buy my tickets... 22nd december... at the same time, please come and support my solo... its not easy to sell tickets when you want everybody to come and listen to your solo... haiz...

Now i am slowing down my pace of life... the world is moving so quickly that when i just slow my pace down, i see lots of things that i had not seen... i begin to understand more about life... i kind of like this slow moving lifestyle... maybe i'll change...

I want to shave my head sometime soon... my fringe is bothering my eyes everytime i'm playing the clarinet... i'm getting quite irritated... i'll keep my hair if it doesn't bother me too much... but i'll save the hair till the concerts... i don't want to be known as 'the monk who played a solo'...

Haiz... i still got to wake up at 6 this morning... tomorrow will be a special day... a day where i am classified 'old' in the band... wonderful... i think...

And i hate being nice...

The world is moving so fast even i feel the change in myself... yesterday was an eventful day which is very different from other eventful days in my life... I met Anthony yesterday as we were heading for the same place... that guy had changed alot... highlighted hair, pierced ears... i could not recognise him at first sight... and what's different about me? i did not insult him the whole time... that is damn different... then at douby ghout, i led a couple to parklane mall... i don't do such things... not in this lifetime at least... but it happened... strange but true... later at parklane, i held the door open for an old lady who was walking at the speed of about 30cm/s... damn slow... but i still held the door open for her... damn... altohugh i feel nice, but these actions shocked me... i too am starting to open up... now i socialise more... i talked to a SWO member although it was our first meeting... i don't do that... i don't talk to strangers... my life is facing a big change... something is wrong with me... i can be nice, but not so nice... someone... please help...

Marcus is damn weak... i played tic tac toe with him over msn and won him 4-0... damn fun... lucky that i caught some scenes of my victory... you might understand better after looking at these...









i even won him to reversi... 52-18!!!

Haiz... lots happened today... but first of all, i want to congratulate the ycksb member who participated in some competition today... according to HongKi, the band won gold in the competition and got 3rd in overall and 2nd in something else... they almost beat the top scorer by 0.8 points... what a waste but well done...


Something sad happened today... something had happened to a friend of mine and my friend will not be performing with me anymore... i feel so sorry...


I just withdrew my first $20 with my DBS card today!!! but i made a fool out of myself in the public... my ez-link caed had less than a dollar by the time i reached yishun mrt... knowing that i won't be able to be home with thatsum, i tried to withdraw some money... to my suprise, the given options were of very big sum(eg. $50, $100, $1000)... so i picked the other option which allows me to withdraw smaller sum... when i entered the option, i was given even more options... i was too lazy to try everything out so i just left... i asked Vanessa and JunXiang how to withdraw smaller sum during the lunch break... they both toldme some cash thing... so i tried it out again when band ended... that was when i made a fool out of myself... when i was back at the same menu,i realised that there were alot of otions with the word 'cash'... so i decided to try every option in the list... damn stupid... every time when a transition failed, my card will come back out... i took the card out and put it back in for about 6 times before i finally get my $20... when i turned around, the queeue behind me was damn long... about 8, nearing 10 people... i was pretty shock... the lady immediately behind me was staring at me when i turned around... after some thinking, i realised that if there were someone whose card had be constantly rejected, i will suspect that that felow might have stolen the card or something... i feel like an idiot...


My 'Cook the Rat' video on youtube had been flagged inappropriate...now the public can see it... damn... i believe this had happened because of some bloody animal lover... bloody people... think they really love animals... if they love animals so much and feed the homeless and hngry animals, i don't see people protesting against the government's anti-mosquito campaign... mosquitos are animals too...we are destorying their habitat... why isn't anyone protesting... and sharkshave been made endangered... why don't these animal lovers jump into a shark infested sea and feed the sharks so that it has more energy for reproduction... humans are at the top of the food chain... i can't have rats competing with me for food... people get public canning so the everyone else will be warned... i am just doing the same...

POS(piece of shit)... i was damn sick yesterday... not sick in the mind tis time... but it was terrble... the situation got so bad that i could not play my instrument... anyway, a day had passed... my condition improved... but it isn't enough... gotta skip sectionals today... damn sad...


Anyway, yesterday in the bus on the way home, there was a big indian man who sat beside me... that man kept talking and laughing to himself... it was kind of scary... but the problem is that he was facing me when he was doing his psychotic stuff... he kept nudging me with his elbow everytime before he burst into laughter... damn weird...lucky i had my noise-cancelling ear piece... and my mp3 was pretty loud too... and i was reading a poster in front of me... so in the end i made the man look like an idiot... i think...