MAN!! I'M SO HAPPY!!! And a little guilty. Well, I'VE PASSED MY BTT!!! It was a really intense moment. I went there super early and i read the stuff in the book that i've never read before. Super excited. Once i got waht i wanted, i just sat there and watch the other fools study. Haha. Study so hard already still do so slow. Haha. Anyway, i entered the Doors or Doom. My password was 9506. Anybody want to buy, go buy. Confirm win one. Haha. Anyway, before the test started, i was preparing myself a couple of excuses for failing. Frog man two tables to my right and big many with woman hair across. Super distraction. In the end, i paid no attention to them and finished my test in 7 minutes. Mega Fast!! I think i was the first to finish. And i did not want to look like a show off. Finish first, but don't win anything. So i decided to double check my answers. While doing so, Frog Man made a distracting "HUH!?". Obviously, we know what happened. He mummbled to himself for awhile. Then again, a dirty tatic to distract other so that we can share the same fate. Well, it's not going to work with me. Finally he said, "Hai, nevermind" really loudly and left. After that, i got kind of worried when i was about the press "I've finished the test". I was wondering how should i react when i fail the test. Should i make a fool out of myself like Frog man? Or should i ask the JC girl beside me for her msn or something? Haha. Well, i decided to smile at myself and walk off. Wasted 30 seconds of my time when the big "PASS" appeared. Dammit. And the big man with sexy woman hair just finished his test too. He passed. I hope his hair don't get him killed in a car ride. Anyway, i got kind of happy and mass send the "Pass My BTT" draft text message to many people. I was preparing for the pass in the train. Took me about 10 minutes to think of that complex riddle. But it failed it's job. Anyway, when i exited the room, Frog man was sitting outside alone. Damn sad. Like a little kid who had lost his pokeball. He was toying with his phone will emo-ing to himself. Really sad guy. I guess Singaporeans get the easier test. Malaysians get the harder ones cause they know Malaysian drivers will eventually become robbers on the causeway. Haha. No offence. But looking at sad Frog man makes my heart soft. I kind of pity him a little. He looked as if he is of extreme sadness because he BTT 18 times. Like that i also want to work at SSDC. But anyway, i wanted to tell him that there is no need for BTT if he is riding a bicycle. But i did not. Headed home and shared the news.


Now MH Online!!!

Sleep Recovery Day. Amazingly, i managed to get quite a lot of sleep today. And amazingly again, i'm still tired. It's a miracle in the making. My life had never worked this way before. At least it's happening for the better.


Why must the above generation be so annoying? I was sleeping in my grandma's place when she entered the room and asked me if i'm sleep. I said yes and she left the room. In less than 2 minutes, my grandmama came back into the room and started talking to me. I kept my eyes closed and responded "Orh" to every statement she made. When she realised that my eyes were closed, she kept going "Ehh, Ehh..." till i had to open my eyes. And when i did so, she continued talking. How annoying. I'm not trying to say that old people are naggy or anything, but they just have to annoy you at the wrong time. Shortly after, my mama came and asked me to eat apple. Dammit. And after the apple saga, i got a text message. How to sleep like that?


Dinner was great. I ate a lot. Though it was kind of boring cause i did not have a common topic to talk about with my cuzzies. They were either too old or too young. The cuzzie above me is like 20+ years old. Already working and all. The one younger than me would be a range from 5 to 14. That's how lonely i was.


The replacement facilitator took 3 weeks to give me a C. Moron.


Haiz. UT and BTT tomorrow. Got to study for both. BTT, i'm just a little unsure about the rules and theories. Signs and all are no kick to me. Haha. Well, the pressure on me is harder now. I want to pass it on my first attempt. GOGOGO!!!

HOME!!! FINALLY!!! Dammit. What a tiring day. Well, it can't be helped. I just got home awhile ago. Sometime around 1.20am. Thankfully, there are still train rides till 1.30am because of the F1.


Met up at Bugis in the early afternoon. Followed Tricia to shop for Jess' Children Day present then down to Sim Lim to hunt for my Xlink Kai. It's a device that allows me to play my monster hunter with the world. How nice. Call me a Monster Hunter addict/freak if you have to. Haha. Amazingly, the big shops don't have the Xlnk Kai. But one shop at the little corner had it. I did not bother searching for a cheaper one. It's so hard to find one in the first place. Haha.

After all, we downed to Haji Lane to shop for Tricia's boyfriend's gift. I finally got myself a seat over there. I had a crazy long walk. Dine at Bugis before leaving for Clek Quay(whatevr the spelling maybe).


Drank at a little pub over there. Amazingly, i drank quite a lot. 2 mugs of beer, 1 shot of Chivas and a few cups of Chivas Green Tea. Honestly speaking, i was near my limits. But it's a good experience. Haha. At least i kept my cool. Zae got seriously drunk. Everyone was helping her stay alive. Left at about 12+am. Thanks Damien and friend for the ride to Doby Ghaut.


Till now, my head still have a little aching feeling on the back. I'll get myself some good sleep soon. But first, i'll go setup my Xlink Kai!! Haha.

Haiz..


I've got so much pressure on me..

Or is it just that i'm putting too much pressure on myself?

I've got so much problems on my side..

Why didn't they come one at a time?

The old solution to stress is dead..

Why aren't there any new solutions?


I feel so helpless..

I can't even help myself..

I don't think i'm in any position to help others if i can't even help myself..


My dream is to make the world smile..

But i can't even make myself happy..

Who am i to make others happy?


My shoulders are heavy and my legs are weak..

There is no one who can take this load off me..

Guess nobody will understand..

Guess nobody can help..


The world is really tough..

But what else more can i say?

Let me just put things this way..

The safest place is also a dangerous place..


I don't need help..

Nobody can help..

There is only one solution..

I am the solution..


I'll walk this tough road alone..

I'll be strong and hold myself..

I've got one thing left to say..

No offence to anyone, i must say..

"JESUS, YOUR MOTHER IS NOT A VIRGIN!!"

I think i need to love Admiralty Park. 3 days straight, i find myself in there. Haha. Anthropological Studies, Art of Story and now, Character Design. If i don't love the place, something must be wrong with me. Haha.

Anyway, today's class was another crazy one. We were sent to the Planet Zeus, a place where there are inhabitants. And for the problem statement, we had to create these little monsters from hell. Initial idea was the Cloverfield way of presenting. When i came back from break, i was informed that i was the creature. Well, i love crazy ideas so why not? The twist is that i had to get my body painted. Then again, why not? Haha. First time becoming a canvas, so i guess it's a good experience. The moment we were released, we headed off for a little shopping. Then down to Admiralty Park for painting. Did the filming and all then got rid of some paint and back to painting for the next creature. Had great fun during the process. Especially when i almost had white paint in my eyes. I had green saliva for a moment too. Haha. After all the filming and stuff, i headed to the sports hall for a shower. I guess i got myself a lot of unwanted attention when i walk by Koufu. Haha. But i had to get cleaned anyway. Well, the ladies were very nice to me the whole time i was colourful.

UT was normal. I studies for it. But things that i've never heard of came out in the test. What element of story and all. I've never heard of such things. Horrible. Well, i tried and i filled all the blanks.


Sometimes i just wish i had writing materials in the toilet. Why do ideas always come in such unexpected ways? When i want to sleep, i get ideas at the point of conscious and sleep. Now when i'm about to bathe, ideas strikes at me like one of Zeus' misfired lightning bolts. It's that random. Haiz.


I really really want to sleep early. No joke, no lies. The past many days seemed so impossible. Now i'm going to make my wish come true. To end it all, i'll show you the green monster we found on Planet Zeus.

Fact of the century: Pek Chai's bag is 9kg!!


Art of Story is getting more and more interesting. Especially when i'm a super lucky guy. I'm the only guy in the group again. Haha. Working with girls can be an interesting experience, but when it's fun, you'll seriously have fun. Reminds me of the old days when i was with the clarinet section. 20 girls, 1 guy. Haha. Really had fun those days.

Making our video was super fun. We travelled all over the school doing stuff that made us looked like idiots(except for the camera girl). The next statement will make a hundred and one girls and boys jealous. Continue if you have to. I. Held. A. Girl's. Hand. For. 10. Seconds. Only because of the film. I was doing my job. Haha.


My body is aching so much from yesterday. So is my little pinkie on the right. I let a 7.5kg and a 10kg DUMBbell pull my poor little finger into the dumbbell holder thing. TWICE it happened. This shows that.. i'm a moron. Haha. Now i can "crack" my little finger. It feels so uncomfortable.


Ok lah. I want to go read my 6P already. My GPA dropped by 0.08 last semester because i did not study for the UTs. Now i'll make the difference.

My natural order of activities have been pushed off course today!! I was so tired, i could not help but take a nap during break 1, thus failing to eat a proper meal. After which, i had realised that i had a really interesting problem statement and i had to take a walk in Admiralty Park. One fun walk i had with my team mates. We started our journey from 11.30am and reached back in class at 1pm. We walked the whole Admiralty Park and interviewed some people. And because of tis walk, i had turned a little darker. I noticed it at gym when i took off my shirt. Colour contrast was pretty much obvious. Haha. Interesting. After i've settled my work, i met Jerry for lunch at KouFu and back to class.

I found a monster hunter comic. Really interesting. I finished all the avaliable chapters today. The art reminds me of RAVE and One Piece. The storyline was great. Though they created a stupid monster which never existed in the monster hunter game, the story is still nice.


After school, met up with ZAE for gym at Bishan. Met some of her friends and pushed myself. I've never reached such limits since god knows when. Haha. I still love Bishan gym best. They went for dinner and i headed home.


Well, i did not get my super sleep last night because of another good deed. I lent Sheryl a listening ear till 11.45+pm. Well, i'm glad to be able to help. But sad to say, i seriously need my sleep tonight. No more good deeds. I know i still owe some of you stuff. Give me a little more time. I'll do them all.

I HAVE TO ADMIT IT!!! I AM STUPID, DUMB, FORGETFUL AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT EVERYONE HAD BEEN USING TO DESCRIBE MYSELF!!! Dammit. Another act of stupidity for today. I forgot to bring something home again. I received a call from Gary when i was reaching CWP which i failed to answer. I called back but he did not answer. While walking to CWP, i remembered that i forgot to bring something home too, but i did not turn back or check my bag. After all, i've walked such distance, i'm not turning back. Anyway, i just received a call from Gary awhile ago. I forgot to bring my charger home. Dammit. I know many of you are happily laughing at home now. You would have snuck a spy camera in my house while i was bathing to catch a footage of me in my withdrawal symptom state, BUT ALL OF YOU ARE WRONG!! When i wanted to use Larry, i realised it was Larry's charger, not my PSP charger!!! Why is Larry so forgetful? He have to be more responsible for his own things in the future. Now, i'm riding a stationary bicycle with a dynamo to produce electricity for Larry. Haiz.


I hate RP's password changing system. Mine expires today and i ran out of ideas for my password. Spent 3 minutes thinking of a password. And my password is now.. haha, i'm not telling. Anyway, i hope i can remember my password.


I'm super tired today. RJ is as usual, challenging. Need to do research and all. I guess i need to get used to it cause it's only week 3 now. Haha.


I'm going to sleep early. My eyes are super uncomfortable now and i'm really tired. RJ and second dinner first.


Anthropological Studies tomorrow. Catch me at Admirity Park tomorrow and win nothing.


Good deed for the day: I did Jasmin's RJ.
And sadly, i loss the mood to do mine.

I just remembered something about yesterday. HuiYan gave me some nuts for the night, but the stupid container have to open itself in my bag. One container was still full, but the other was only one quarter full. Where did the three quarters go to? Into my bag. Damn sad. So much food wasted.


I had enough of all the lies and bullshit. Save me all these nonsense.


I'm all tired now. I need my rest.

What a busy day i had yesterday. So much things happened. Haha. Interesting day.


Woke up freaking early, as usual. In the afternoon, headed down to Gary's place for online MH!!! Damn shiok. Never have i played with 3 other pro players. The teamwork process is really good. I enjoyed myself hell lot. I got many super rare items and Gary did not get any. Haha.

Down to City Hall in the evening to celebrate HuiJun's birthday. Had Changing Appetite for dinner. Well, it really changed my appetite.. from hungry to not hungry. The food is not fascinating and the pricing was fascinatingly expensive. The chair was super uncomfortable too. The service was horrible. Eventually, we walked hell lot and finally settled for the cake session. Did some crazy gay shit cam-whoring before the song of the day. For pictures, please view someone else's blog. I'm really lazy now. You'll know why soon.

After all, we walked the girls to their respective locations before heading out for our nights out. Chan and i walked from Raffles Place to Clake Quay and met Jerry there. Chill out over there and absorb the atmosphere. When we got really bored, we walked to Doby Ghaut for a drink. One jug of Tiger. We could not finish it. When the drink is no longer cold, the taste is horrible. Sit and talked about a lot of thing. Later, Raph and his friends came down. Then back to walking. Walk until hell far, i don't really know where, but we walked by Sim Lim. Then to some Pool Fusion, but we did not play. After which, we walked to Bugis to enjoy the night life of Bugis Street. Feels like some ghost hunt thing. After that, we decided not to walk anymore and head back to our starting destination. Sit down and play card for awhile before heading for home. Raph drove me back. Reached home at 6 and slept for 3 hours.

Next guy plan, cycling!!! Go ride around Singapore!!! Alright. I'm feeling really lazy now. Bye.

I'm really really tired. Did some crazy poster for class today. Really funny faces i got there. I shall not showcase my poster here due to some technical errors that i could not fix. It makes the whole poster look really really fugly.


I'm on the verge of giving up for Joan. I feel that my effort are going down to waste. It's horrible. The PSLE is so near. I'm putting too much pressure on myself. Or is it just that the tuition is giving me pressure? Sometimes, i feel that i'm the one studying for PSLE. I read her guild books to better understand things to teach her. She sit there and wait for answers. When i'm really tired and i try to explain some stuff when i go a little over time, i get shit attitude back. What is this? I don't deserve such things. I can make do without such things. I feel like a walking dictionary or answer booklet. What am i? An answer machine? Screw all that. No more secondary school tuition on further years. I'm not going to get myself all pressurised and stressed out over a little girl. Independence will start somewhere. I'll get myself killed one day with so much stress and pressure pounding on me. Time to let go.

Reached home at 12.30am. See, another stress factor from tuition. Just when i thought i don't have to count the hours of sleep anymore. Anyway, i need to find an output to ventilate all this unnecessary stress. If gyming won't work anymore, i'll go do something else to distract my wondering mind.


Going to sleep now. Tomorrow is going to be one hell of a day. Goodnight.

Compliments from my Production Practicum facilitator.

"Otherwise I can see that you are the hardest working in the team."

But why did i get just a B!!! Not fair!!!


Pretty fine day. One guy left, leaving Sheryl and Vivian in my group. E24B group!!! Did a Flash for presentation, but Vivian and Sheryl did all the drawing. I only put them in sequence and add in some cheap animation. One of the teams did an installation today. It was really stunning. Very very impactful. First time i see people doing an installation in such a short time and with such limited resources. Weel done though. They just pushed the bench mark up for the class. Haha.


FUCKING FLY!! GET OFF ME!!! I'VE BATHE ALREADY!! GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE!!!

I can't believe i raised my voice at a fly. I was really irritated. I'm not its best friend or anything. We just met and its following me everywhere. It got a little too near my ear and crawled on my lip. That was my last straw. I'm innocently eating my Hello Panda biscuit and it have to come and spoil my day. I did not want to kill it, but i was forced to. Too bad. Now, rest in peace!!!


I hate sweaty palms. Especially when i'm playing my PSP. I have to wipe my hands everywhere. In that spilt second of that crucial moment of the game, i have to take my hand off and wipe them on my shirt or something. And what's the point of 50% when you keep on getting the 10%? So annoying. I ALMOST wanted to smash my PSP. Haha.


Alright, i'm really behind time of my planned sleeping schedule. Just because of one stupid 50% problem and a 600+ word RJ. I love writing the RJ for Character Design. It's almost like blogging. Just got to be honest and share your experience.


Now the mother fly is here. I'm going to kill your whole family if i have to!!

Haiz. I feel so unproductive today. I was sleepy and all, my brain could not think properly. I kept on fumbling with my words and it takes me like 10 seconds to recall what my team was doing for presentation. Kind of retarded. In fact, very retarded. Anyway, today was about Cinderella. I read the Brothers Grimm's version of Cinderella today. Kind of interesting, but it's a little gory for little kids. There are cutting of toes and all in there. I felt a little disgusted reading that version. Haha.

Went to Koufu for the very first time. There was no crowed and no queue. I guess it's because today is a wednesday, it's the fasting month right now and the canteen is poorly located. The food is cheap though. It' didn't taste too badly too.


Gym with Gary, Damien and friend at RP's gym. I hate the no air-con environment. Make me sweat so much. I did not do too much though. My aches from Sunday might be gone but my muscles are not fully recovered on the inside. After all the training, i'm left with a pair of white bubble like thing on each palm. It's kind of uncomfortable, but well, fight fire with fire i guess. Haha. After gym, played 2 rounds with Gary before leaving.

I want to go jogging with Damien one day. A whole lot of pro joggers and all. Well, jogging will save me the naggings from my mama, insults from my brother and improve my stamina.


Well, i seriously need my sleep now. My grades are not appearing. I guess my grades are so bad it cannot be shown. Haiz. Whatever it is, i rather not know too much and go to sleep.

I can't believe i fell asleep four times in row while reading the resources this morning. Well, two possible reasons; the resources were really wordy or i was really sleepy. Every time i put my head on the table and blink my eyes, i can't open them the moment they are closed. Horrible.

I was thinking of a lot of stuff just now, but sadly, i've forgotten them all. Dammit. I guess i'm really really tired. I really need an early night.


After today's problem statement, i realised that it's so hard being a man or at least, a guy. We guys view the term "manly" so much differently to the girls. No wonder so many people are turning gay. There are so much rules on how to be a man and all. i'm going to die knowing them all. And some are kind of retarded and i don't agree to them.


Screw everything. No point thinking so much. Just focus on what i'm doing. I'll need to find another output to this category of problems.

Tuition the 2 kids today because Tricia needed her beauty sleep and I NEED TO DO MY RJ NOW!!! INSPIRE ME SOMEBODY!!!

I'm done with my RJ now, but I NEED TO BATHE BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE!!! If i don't bathe soon, i'll need to bathe tomorrow instead. Haha. Damn gross.

Anyway, i got a little interested in horoscope and stuff during meeting 3. How interesting, it seems so accurate. It's either i'm being observed from space by some super scientist since birth or i can simply relate all the stuff to myself. Quite some bit of facts over there. I can't deny most of them. Haha. (Check out the post before this for details)


I think menses is striking me. I got this sudden mood swing in class today. For no god damn reason man. I suddenly feel insecure and stuff. I felt a little pinch in my chest and i could not concentrate on what i'm doing.


Tuition was fine. Just a little hard to concentrate cause i have 2 little brats bombarding me with all sorts of questions. I had to go "You Shut Up!" so many times. I was tired and all and Joan have to give an interesting head start to the whole session.


Anyway, class was interestingly BORING. Okay, maybe not that bad. Guess i'm the one who made things all boring. I did this super Picasso cross-breed Michelangelo's colouring for 2 hours and i got sick of colouring. Well, at least i completed my work. But i kind of spoilt it a little by experimenting on the artwork itself. It hurts to know that all my hardwork is gone just by that few simple strokes. Here's the masterpiece. I'd say it's a little abstract, so don't ask me what is that round thing.


Ask me for the original work, i think it looks way better.

Here are some interestingly annoying things about my horoscope and people born in the month of February.


The symbol for Aquarius is the Water-Bearer, a universal man who is pouring forth water from a jug. This universal man represents the community of mankind. The waters of life flow, like ideas coming from the unrestrained mind. Many people mistakenly think that Aquarius is a water sign, but it is an intellectual air sign. As such, Aquarius can be interested in concepts and ideas. Because of its universality, Aquarius can seem somewhat detached from personal emotions. It's not that you Aquarius don't have feelings; it's just that yours are different from most others. You dance to the beat of a different drummer.

Aquarius can be good communicators as long as you stay in the mental realms. Aquarius are friendly, but can become uncomfortable as you discuss your feelings. In fact, your friends are very important to you and Aquarius might be involved with groups of like-minded people in a social club, a political action group or a public service group.

The Aquarius motto could be Einstein's "Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds." And yours is a great spirit, sometimes erratic and sometimes brilliant. You know much about yourself and the world, but knowing everything can be an obstacle to your own happiness. Your practice is twofold. First, you must learn how to separate your crazy notions from what is important. And second, you need to learn how to respond to the opposition you encounter without making it difficult for yourself.

Element: Air
The astrological element of air represents movement. And the most efficient movement between two points is often a thought. Air signs are thinkers. They emphasize the intellect over other functions. With active minds and a good command of language, the air signs are the natural born communicators. They can be light and breezy as the breath of spring, but their words can also carry the power of a gale force wind.

The air of Aquarius can be like the winds after a lightning strike. Large amounts of air are moved around suddenly in such a storm, and that which survives this intensity gets to enjoy the calm after the storm.

Eleventh House: Future
The Eleventh House is sometimes called the House of Friends, Hopes and Dreams. Friends will support our dreams of the future. Here, in the Eleventh House, we're not concerned with our day-to-day responsibilities. Instead, we are thinking about our ideal situation and dreaming of ways to get there. Whether we do or not is less important than keeping the dreams alive.

Key Planet: Uranus
Uranus is the weirdest planet in the solar system. Its north pole faces the Sun and its Moons spin around it backwards. As such, Uranus symbolizes the eccentric and unique things in our lives. It is associated with brilliance -- even if short-lived. And, like lightning, Uranus can release the hidden tensions suddenly and with great immediacy. In fact, Uranus is often the astrological culprit when our lives are turned upside-down. As the key planet of Aquarius, it encourages us to rebel against social injustices and to seek freedom of expression in our lives.

Aquarius Greatest Strength: Your eclectic way of seeing things

Aquarius Possible Weakness: Know-it-all attitude puts others off


----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
Freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
Aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
But rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
Inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Haiz. I'm all tired and stuff. I can't believe i sacrificed my sleep for games. Haiz. How stupid of me.


Anyway, gymed today was horrible. There was this bastard who said that he'll let me have the machine after five sets. In the end, his friends came and he had the machine with his friends for the next 45 minutes. How inconsiderate can people get? I did other stuff while waiting till i was too tired for that chest machine. And after i'm done gyming, he and his friends are still using the machine. Dammit.

I want to go back to gyming twice a week. Wednesday sounds good, anyone interested for gym at Woodlands after school, please let me know. I'm starting this coming wednesday. I need to push myself already.


I got a rough idea on how to do my stupid bouncing ball now. I'm going to try it out tomorrow.


I'm turning in early, i need my rest. Tomorrow is going to be a long day. Goodnight.

I feel so lazy today. As usual, i skipped gym. I was a little sick and i was really really sleepy. It can't be helped. Anyway, i completed another story for Project_KickAss. Took me about 1 hour to finish it this morning. The rest of the time is spent with my PSP. But this time, i played less. How i know? I did not need to charge my PSP. Haha.


Headed down to J8 to meet my big cousin. Big as in not my elder, but big as in size and weight. Haha. Walked about the boring place for awhile before heading down to TPY BJ. Chat with Wilwin a little and gave him a gift. I'm not gay. He is leaving Singapore already. This thursday. Damn. Such a nice friend and how he's going. How sad.


Anyway, i remembered something about yesterday. I touched Boy Boy's shit by accident while trying to find stuff to burn. Haha. How dumb of me, as usual. The thought of it is kind of disgusting. I can't believe i still go and smell my finger after i washed my hand with some water from a bottle. Haha.


I got another C for my first week. In one week, i have gotten 2 Cs. How nice. Dammit. This semester is really not easy. In semester 3, we were given the body and asked to find a solution. Now, we are given the solution and asked to find the body. How in the blue hell is that possible? There is so much things to say, so where do we start? I'll not let this chain continue. I'll fight off the Cs soon.


Anyway, here's a little something to get your hearts itching a little.

No crazy dream tonight. I did not dream of anything last night, at least i did not remember what i dreamt this time.


School was fine. Did a hell lot of stuff with my team. I had great fun. And once again, i was the only guy in the group again!! Haha. After school, went over to ZAE's class for a little fun before meeting the W15H people. Had a great talk with HuiJun. Learnt a lot of things. Thanks.


I miss my sleep. Well, it's not like i'm not getting sleep or anything, but i've not gotten a peaceful sleep for a really long time. Everytime i'm about to sleep, i always find myself having a really tight chest. I guess my peaceful sleep is not going to come anytime soon.

I tell you what, i had another crazy dream. I know it sounds crazy enough to have crazy dreams consecutively, but it's all true. No lies. Here goes. I dreamt that i had a son. Yes, mother-less son, for some strange reason that could not tell. But this boy is not just any ordinary boy, he was an INDIAN BOY!!! About the age of 4 to 6. Still have that innocent cute un-criticized indian boy. Yeah. He spoke amazingly fluent english to me. And he is not just any ordinary english speaking indian boy, he had the royal blood. Yes, SCARY!!! I don't know how that royal blood got into him, but i did not care. I woke up shortly after. I know this sounds really crazy, but it's all true. As in the dream part is true, not the royal english speaking indian son. Too bad i did not ask for his name. Haha.

And here is another crazy dream. Yes, another one. Just two totally outrageous dreams in one night. I had two bitches. Bitches as in the dog, not the girl. They were in my room, cute, happy and quiet. I love it. So lively yet so peaceful. I was just there sitting in my room doing stuff on Larry, maybe PP or something. And those damn dogs have to go pee on my laptop and bed when i'm done with my work. My brother's bed got messed by the pee too. I had to do the stupid clean up before my brother come back. The End. I can't remember what happens next. Haha.


My handphone had menses today. I could not send HuiYan my 3 page long birthday greetings. I still wanted to ask her to make a wish for me on her birthday. But sadly, i could not send all the shit out. Break time, i realised that i could not call anyone either. I could not receive or send out anything. My dear handphone had totally lost its purpose. From handphone to alarm clock. How pathetic. When i finally got home, my sister suggested taking out the batteries and putting them back and it worked. Dammit, why didn't i think of that?!


Cute facilitator tomorrow. I'm not making anyone a paedophile here.

Haiz. Before today, everyone was talking about the PP submission date. And today, everyone is talking about their PP's approval. Damn sick lah. One stress after another, why don't they stop coming?


Haiz. Super tired today. Last night, when i finally get a chance to play my PSP, i ended up getting myself into more stressful problems. And those stressful matters ended up getting my mind all worked up, i could not sleep at night cause my mind was too active. Haiz. Sometime i wish i'm not a guy. There is this stereotype about gender saying that girls are more emotional and they speak their problems out. As for guys, we have too much pride and don't talk about our problems. Sad to say, i'm one of those that make people come up with such a stereotype. How i wish i can talk my problems out. At least that would allow me to not express myself in violent ways. Just last night, i felt the stress was so overwhelming that i felt like punching some walls. I know, it's sounds really childish. That's way i got to suck them all into myself. Haiz. Stress is poison to the body.


Class was still okay. The only difficulty i face in the morning was remembering which class i'm supposed to go to. And when i've found the class, i had a new difficulty. Communication. I was solo Chi-Na boy in my group. Everyone is speaking in malay. Though they tried to speak in english for the benefit of me, it did not last. Well, i guess i'm in Chan's situation now. Living in a native land, lost in the foreign languages.


Can't wait for tomorrow. I'm getting more comfortable in the class now. Time to be myself and prove to my facilitator that i don't deserve a C!!


Now that i can play my PSP, i find myself being too tired to play. Haiz. Horrible. End of week one, start of a tiring week. Guess i won't survive the week if i'm going sleep at 12am everyday. My goal for today, sleep before 11pm. Hope i enjoy my sleep.


I'm going to force myself to get my frame-by-frame animation right. Time to get back to basics. First stop, Bouncing Ball!!!

WHHOOO!!! I'M THE WORLD'S 3RD HAPPIEST MAN!!! Why 3rd, i don't know yet. Anyway, i've finished my PP!! Now i am mentally free!!! Haha. Alright, i'll put things in a chronic order.


I got myself a wacky dream last night. I dreamt of the peeps of E24B. ASSUMINGLY, everyone were fools in my dream. Thanks to the wonderful works of Gary the Great, i could not get my PSP charger back.I found myself back in school and i asked for my charger back, but Gary did not want to return me. Don't return me never mind, he still ask me to do my PP!! Out of desperation, i tried to snatch it from him, but that smart ass have to pass it to someone else to hide it. In the whole dream, i was having a charger hunt in E2. It's crazy i tell you, every time when i'm close to getting it, someone have to take the charger and run away to hide it again. Take already never mind, but everyone kept asking me to do my PP. Wah, i tell you, it's madness. The people that i remembered very well in the dream were Gary, Zach, Damien, ZAE, and Mo. The rest of you guys, i can't remember seeing you guys, but i bet you appeared in the dream too. Haha.


School was madness. I had to draw. It was horrible, but i still did draw. The outcome was not too bad. I wanted to post the drawings up, but i realised that i was too lazy, as always, to do such things. I did not get my PSP charger till break 2. I swear i did not play my PSP. I know that if i start, i can never stop. I did not even bother looking at the Monster Hunter Forums. I don't want to tempt myself. So officially, i did not play my PSP for 2 days!! And i'll make sure it don't happen again. It felt horrible. Did a little of my Project_KickAss during meet 3.


After school, 'chiong' PP with E24B at Cafe Galele(whatever the spelling is). Finished my PP at about 7pm. I felt so good man. It's like a mental load lifted off me. I CAN PLAY MY PSP AGAIN!!! The first thing i did when i board the train home was to PSP!!! Haha. I guess the mental load will be back very soon. I'm expecting nothing but "rework". After all, my goal was to hit the 2K word count. Haha. After which is my BTT. I can't wait to pass it. Haha.


I find the growth of facial hair is a great waste of energy. As we learn from secondary school, when we consume, we only get 10% of the energy of what the animal once ate (that's one reason why we have all rights to eat more). This is because there is energy lose from movement, growth, reproduction and so on. And for us humans, we are at the top of the food chain, so we don't need to worry a single bit about getting eaten or whatsoever. But still, mainly for men, the growth of facial hair is such a waste of energy going to the "growth" aspect. The hair under my nose and on my chin have to grow so quickly. I have to waste so must strength shaving it over and over again. It's like twice a week man. How annoying.


Time to do my RJ. Then back to my dear PSP!!!

I woke up too early this morning. Slept at 3am and woke up at 9am. In order to get my mind distracted from my low-battery PSP, i did a little thinking and got myself a KickAss idea for my Project_KickAss. Drew the plan out and started on it. Improved on the plan as i do on. Now, i've made a new best friend. Ctrl+S. Need to SAVE SAVE SAVE every time i do stuff. I was happily drawing my background and my Adobe Flash crashed on me. Best thing is, i did not save it. Haha. Had to redo it from the start. For this story, i feel that i've done it way faster than what i had been working on. Maybe it is because i've learnt more shortcut keys from books or i plan ways to make things easier for myself. Whichever it is, i think i'm improving on it. i did some effects that i discovered by accident too. How interesting. Mistakes are lessons. Now all i need is a picture and i can complete the story. Give me the picture and another 2 hours and i can complete it.


I did not touch my PP the whole day. It's still the same 1400+ words. I want to do a little today, but i could not think very well and got nothing from all the thinking. Another reason is that my mind is so engrossed in the Flash animation, i could not get my mind to think straight. How annoying. Try not to get the picture too soon so that i can work on my PP. I plan to finish it up tomorrow in school. After all, the deadline is the day after. There is no other days i can do my PP.


Gym at Woodlands gym today. The place was horrible. There is this musty stench lurking around. I am very unfamiliar with the equipments too.


Sometimes i wonder why am i doing this Project_KickAss. Practise? Leisure? Friends? I'm not getting anything out of it from spending so much time on it. Who is going to see it? Who is going to critic it? Who is going to accept it? I just doubt my purpose of this project. The main reason i started is the main reason why i doubt my actions. Where is it nowadays? The reason once held joy. Now, it brings pain. Screw everything. I'll just finish the project and see what the future have to offer. There's much i want to show, but i can't them. Haiz.

My brother just have to be a bloody son of a good mother. He really piss me off man. That clown have to blame everyone for his lousy mistakes. When he need something, he expects the whole world to get it for him. Now when i need something, he provides minimum effort to help me get it. And all his statements just contradicts himself. What a loser man. My blood is boiling with desperation right now.

"It should be on the bench beside the TV, if not then i don't know."
"I did not take anything out of my bag last night."
"If really cannot find, that means i did not bring it home."

WHAT THE FUCK MAN!! If he did not take anything out of his bag last night, how could it be on the bench in the first place? And how could he have not brought it home when he said he brought it home last night? This is all bullshit man. When he needs something, the whole world becomes has search party while he sit there and play DS. I think he needs a private search engine or something to help him locate all this things. Probably can ask Google to make on for him or something. Dammit. No wonder he keeps getting all the ill treatment from me. Last time i just stupid to be nice to him when he is treating me like dirt. Now that i've started thinking for myself, i'll defend myself. And he will pay for his misdeeds. Tickle me, no problem. Tickle him, get angry. Snooze alarm clock until he is late for school, blame me when i'm not at home. I play games in the living room alone so that he can sleep at night, he turn on the light in the room so that he can play games while i try sleep. Only think of himself. Never was there anyone else before himself. He can laugh and poke fun at me, i can't laugh and poke fun at him. Fuck it man. If things gets any worst, i'll walk my own road when we are no longer bounded by my parents. I'll be so rich in the future, my siblings will be licking my wife's shoe collection clean in an attempt to borrow money from me. Lend them already still must charge interest. Cannot pay then i'll happily beat them up for no reason. Take their items and pawn them for money to return myself. Their home will only be an empty one room flat. Not even a mattress for them to sleep on, not even flattened cardboard boxes. I'll make sure they get what they give. So much for trying to be nice at home. They'll probably beg me to hire them as maids for my mansion. During meal time, they'll secretly cook extra rice to feed themselves while hoping the food inflation will make me poor. And while being maids, they'll steal my wife's jewelleries and run of to Malaysia to become millionaire for a day before police bring them to a place with free food. Not exactly free though, IT'S TAX PAYERS MONEY!!! AND THAT SOUNDS LIKE ME!!

That brings me to another thought. Are we promoting crime in Singapore? Why are criminals getting the fruit of our labour? Why are we feeding them? Is it a form of payment to them? If so, are we paying them to be criminals? And are we paying to put ourselves in danger?

I miss my PSP.. Charger!!



Back blogging. The time now is 10.59pm. Dammit. I wonder how long i've been sitting in front of the computer thinking and writing. I've been working on my PP since 2pm and now i'm taking a little break while Zach feedback on my PP. Guess what, i'm no longer at 261 word. Now, i have 932 words.. LEFT!!! FFOOO!!! Anyway, i've made my room into a messy little office like place. Got some cables so that i can connect my mp3 to my room's radio, got a little table to put on my bed so that Larry can rest on it while i work my day away. Sat in my room the almost the whole time. The only time i took a break was the 2 bomb sessions, 30 minutes of break, dinner, collecting of ideas, about 30 minutes watching banned and funny commercials and the 10-minute distraction from an online game i found while researching. The rest of the time, research, typing, singing and thinking.


After so long, i finally feel like a hardworking idiot again. When was the last time i was hardworking? Year 1 Semester 2, i studied for my Enterprise UT4. Yvonne called me while i was studying. Yeah. That's the last time i was hardworking. It's been hell long since i sit alone a spend the whole day on work. The only time i can sit alone for long hours is when i'm playing my PSP.


I guess the disappearance of my PSP charger can be considered a blessing from the holy man or woman. I played the whole morning till my battery is left with less than 30 minutes of game play. I had to stop playing. And the only thing to keep my mind away from my PSP was PP!! See, so perfect take the "S" out of the word "PSP" and you'll get "PP". It's fate, it's scary. It's a magical subliminal message. So the next time you play your PSP, be reminded that your PP is either 1. Unaccepted, 2. Not completed or 3. Haven't started. If the 3 options does not apply to you, then your PP will either be rejected or your advisor lost a copy of it and your computer mysteriously delete your copy of PP. Haha!! In case anyone can't take jokes, i'm just kidding.


Haiz. I kind of worried about tomorrow. It took me so many hours to get another 800 words out for my PP and i want to do things tomorrow. I want to go to the gym. I'm getting all small, light, skinny and flabby. And i'll be needing at least another 800 words by tuesday. My cold turkey therapy is taking effect on me already. I feel like a freaking drug addict trying to quit drug consumption. Dammit. The desperation to play my PSP is growing. I can't live the weekend without my PSP!!!


If only i could write my PP the way i blog. It will be way easier to hit the word count and it would be so much more fun. I'm going to revolutionise report writing in the future. I'll make it informal and funny and everyone will enjoy writing PPs for no reason.


I just saw the birthdat card W15H gave me. Very interesting comments. Well, some things have changed and some have not. And HuiJun's "Happy Birthday Day" had never failed to entertain me. Haha.


Guess i'll call it a day for my PP. After Zach make the edits and i've read through it, i'll get myself some rest. Then again, thanks Zach. I'll help you do the edits for your next PP. Haha!!

Okay, Zach just saddistictly bring my word count up to 1436. Damn Pro.

I realised that i made many people happy today. Laughter is really the best medicine. And laughter is free. No harm giving a little to everyone.

Break with E24B peeps. Happy Birthday Damien. We forgot to sing you the song that everyone hates. The Birthday Song!! Haha. Well, there is always next year!! Haha.


After break, i had a super chat with Zach about.. Who's not important, but the content is. I did not expect it to be funny till Zach told me. Haha. Spent the whole meet 2 chatting with Zach and researching at the same time. While doing so, Jocelyn asked me a interesting question which i returned an interesting answer.

Jocelyn: If your plane crash and you are stuck on a deserted island, what games would you play with the survivors?

Sam: Who in the right mind would want to play games in such a situation?

That was her problem statement. Haha. Very interesting indeed. Later when she came to my class with Allison, they we both laughing at my reply. Haha.


After school, Tricia introduced me to this childhood game she once played. Well, i've never played such a game therefore i self proclaim myself, NO CHILDHOOD. Anyway, the game was to pinch the person beside you and ask them to guess what is the colour of a Singh's turban. So i guess, the girls took the chance to pinch me all over with all they've got. Some parts of my arm hurt really badly for a few hours. Haha. But later, i created other variations of the game. Instead of sticking to just turbans, i played around with tudongs and Tokyo Drifts. Haha. Damn funny.


Flash. Flash. Flash. Flash. Is it the way i do it? Or is it caused by other reasons? Tried to do my frame-by-frame animation again. It did not work out too well. Still very rigid. Tried two different ideas and both failed. I guess it's the frame speed. Or could it be another reason? Haiz. I won't know till i try it out.

I can't believe i overslept this morning. And it's all for the worst reasons. Well, it all started yesterday. Seriously. Yesterday morning, while trying to kill my freaking alarm, i put the alarm to snooze by accident. When i finally woke up and had brushed my teeth and all, my alarm was one minute away from ringing again. And in order to stop my alarm from annoying myself, i had to challenge myself to turn off the alarm before it rings. It's quite exciting whenever i do that. Haha. Anyway, another reason for turning off the snooze was because i did not want to press my button an extra time cause it would reduce my button's lifespan. My joystick for navigation is already giving me problems, i can't bear to have another problem on my phone. After all, my 2-year plan is ending soon. This november is the magical month. Remember it for no reason!!


Today's class wasn't too bad. Character Design. I guess the only great thing about the module is that i got a sweet yet feminine looking facilitator. FFOOO!!! Super motivation man. Haha. And she's like a DJ, she never run out of things to speak about. And she rarely have break. The only time she is not talking is when someone else is talking. If not, she'll just be talking away like a gatling gun. But the things she speak of are easy to relate cause it's as if she is speak our language. Haha. It's really fun with her. Back to the lesson, i tried to design this character. I tried drawing but my character became a zombie instead. How horrible. In the end i gave up on it and did my little Flash thing in 10 minutes.


Flash was really fun. I did this frame-by-frame animation. Though it only lasted for 2 seconds, i felt that it was a good start. It's not really easy though, i need to draw hell lot. I want to redo the whole thing and do a better one. I got so engrossed in trying to perfect my animation, i got lost in my own world during the 3rd meeting. Haha. At least i've figured some things out and i need to try it out. I'm going to make a really cool jumping animation next. But first, i need to study the climbing and jumping motion of a human. Haha. Time to think again.


After school, I went to celebrate Akina's birthday before heading back to E24B's random gathering. Mo's birthday, got to spend some happy time together. Headed down to the coffee shop opposite school for dinner. Mo and ZAE just can't get their heads away from alcohol. No vodka, drink beer. Haha. Well, today is not my drinking day. Tried a sip from Gary but did not continue. After the meal, MH with ZAE, Gary and Damien. Finally, 4 people. Just what i needed, a new experience. Haha.


While peeing today, i thought crossed my mind. If the Buddha would make someone's mouth crooked when they bad mouth the Buddha, why does the Buddha want to create such people in the first place? Well, the answer is simple. The Buddha is asking for it. So it can't be helped, i'm created with a purpose. Haha.


Something is wrong with me. My eating habits had all gone wrong. I don't have an appetite for break 1 and my dinner was never enough. Damn, the holiday had gotten me all crazy.


+Loveless-
Sometimes i just wish you know it without me saying it. I'm still the same old coward you once knew. I've lost and gave up opportunities. I'm such a loser.

Dammit. I can't believe i'm doing an extra RJ while everyone is at home shaking their legs or sleeping their days away. Haiz. Well, while everyone is enjoying their cool bed in the beautiful weather, i'm wide awake eating my stupid Mee Goreng in preparation for school. Met Tricia to travel to school. We are the only two 5-day people. How sad, for me to be stuck with her. All her crazy ideas just kill me a little too quickly. Haha.


First day in class. So far so good. Just a little more quiet compared to the previous semester's. Interestingly, my class has only 8 Chinese. And if my guess it right, i'm the only Chinese guy there. Haha. How lucky of me. And my class is filled with girls!! And some good looking ones. Haha. But well, a commitment to nobody is still a commitment. I was the only guy in today's group. How cool is that? Guys, be jealous. Haha. Interesting module. Story writing. It was not my turn to write the story this time. There was a more pro story writer in my group. Write 2 stories in such a short time, i bet she is not human. I ended up doing Flash again. Haha. As usual. Did a Flash to show the story. 1+ hour of Flashing and i could not finish the whole thing. I did till the last scene. Then again, i really hate deadlines.


Wasn't an easy day for me as i had not contact with food since breakfast. The mee goreng was a real appetite killer. I eat it so much and so often, i could not have another meal with it. I did not go down for break one cause Tricia was not hungry and did not go down with E24B peeps cause i wanted to start on my ideas. Break 2, still did not give myself a chance to eat. Monster Hunt a little with Gary and back to work. I was extremely hungry then, but when i started on Flash, i totally forgot about my own hunger. Haha. Only after the presentation, i remembered i was hungry and struggled the whole time through. Haha.


After school, i got tempted to eat LJS with Tricia though i had food at home. She wanted some company and i got abused. Ended up following her about to look for her sock shop and assessment books for Jess. If i did not eat with Tricia, i would have succeed in not spending a single cent the whole day. Haha. But well, i guess that's impossible in Singapore.


FOOOH!! I can't wait for tomorrow. Sheryl and Vivian will be in the same class as me. I pray the facilitator is nice enough to allow us t be grouped together. Come to think of it, i forgot to do my networking today. I did not get the msn contact of my group mates. Haiz.


I really hate my little toe. There is always this extra nail growing out from the side and it cannot be cut off. Now that little toe nail is becoming a pain in the toe. I cover blanket or wear my sock, my dumb toe nail will get hooked and it hurts hell lot. Dammit. Screw my damn toe!!! Suck it Mama!!!


I had a bad dream. I dreamt that i gave up on Joan. Haha. What a weird dream. I did questions my commitments once in awhile, but it had never gone that far. Well, it won't come true.


I got a new idea for my Flash!! Well, not really an idea, but something i want to try out. FRAME BY FRAME ANIMATION!!! It's going to be freaking time consuming, but the result will be the best. Well, that's what most animators are doing anyway. Just got to start on the first frame, onion skin and DRAW!!! I'll find some time to try that. I think i'll start with a stick man Tarzan.


Time to do my extra RJ. Dammit. And i'm hell tired.

What a day. Spend almost every hours out of the house. Woke up hell early. Had a great nap during the talk. Easy points today, everyone was playing PSP or cards. The guys went to steal food from the TRCC and we were forced to finish all the left overs. And it's hell lot i tell you. Well, we finished it. After the event, we hang out at one corner and did a hell lot of crazy stuff. I did the "suck it mama" thing till my waist got bruised. Haha.

After all, we headed down to Orchid Country Club. I unlocked my hidden talent in bowling and won nothing.

For pictures, you can check out the links on my blog. They'll be there, but don't trust the captions.


All of my devices seems to be running low on battery. My handphone was low on battery. My laptop had not power supply. My PSP's battery was drained from all the games the girls had been playing. My mp3 battery almost died. Lucky for me, i managed to squeeze a little more out of it, enough for me to travel home. How lucky of me.


I guess i've just condemned the minds of many with a simple PSP game. You people, better not get addicted. If it happens, i'll confiscate your PSP!!


School starts tomorrow for me. How lucky for everyone. How lucky for me. At least i can start knowing my classmates early. Haha.


Well, goodnight. I need to recover from the loss of sleep from the past 3 weeks. Goodnight.

Tired. I'm trying so hard to fight off the fatigue, but it don't seem to be working too well. I guess i'll never get a chance to get some serious good rest. My body had ben tired to the state where my health had started failing me. Had a nap at Kim's place again. I could not get much sleep cause the girls where really noisy. But still, good enough for me. As for now, i'm going to get less than 6 hours of sleep cause i need to wake up freaking early tomorrow.


Enough said, goodnight.

What a day. I finally got a chance to rest from the hell of events. Haha. And technically, i did not bathe the whole sunday. Haha. Cause i just got my long awaited bath. Haha.


Main event of the day: E24B's first gathering. I look forward to the next one, without alcohol. This alcohol had made my night a little too interesting. Haha.

Headed down to AMK NTUC for a little last minute shopping for the BBQ. Got a little too much stuff though. And i tried to get Jasmin's super duper dark secret of the fine arts of supreme chicken marination. It was really easy to get the recipe from her though, but she was a little smarter than me, she did not tell me the quantity!! Haha. In the end, my big boss, Damien, did the marination with his own secret chicken marination recipe which he told me about it.

Food was great, the company was great, the Wii was great and the alcohol was not so great. Drank with everyone, but i knew my limits. And here's the Hall of Fame:

ZAE
Mo
Zach
Gary

By the time we started drinking, we were left with Damien and girlfriend, ZAE, Mo, Zach, Gary and me. Interestingly, the unexpected happened. The two that i did not expect to get drunk were Zach and Gary, but they did. Everyone headed home at around 12am. I was fooled by Gary's strong front though he fell twice on the way out, he took ZAE back. Damien and girlfriend took Zach home. And i stayed at the bus stop with Mo till he is good enough to go. After Mo left, i headed down to Khatib for ZAE and Gary cause ZAE was sober and Gary was off. Followed him everywhere till we managed to trick Gary into a cab. I brought Gary home. Learnt a lot and had a challenging time with him. Brought Gary straight into the house. Cabbed home. Reached home at 1.30am.

Damn, what an exciting day. Let's have another gathering in the future!! THIS TIME WITHOUT ALCOHOL!!! And everyone must turn up. Damien and i had already came up with drinking plans to fight off the crazy drinkers. Next time, we shall execute it.

Last but not least, A BIG THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO CAME!!! YOU ARE THE PEOPLE THAT MADE THE NIGHT!!! Here is a little list of people to credit. Next time the rest must come!!

Jason and Wife
Damien and Girlfriend
Ying Ting AKA ZAE
Syahirah
Sheryl
Moses
Zachary
Gary

Special thanks to Damien for helping out with the drunkards. Haha.