Welcome, Hungry Ones.


Had a bad start today. But i hope i'll forget it.


Maybe all i need is a little escape. Well, working had did a great job. Amazingly, i did not do order taking this time. I did washing today!! haha. Miss those times. I was given an option but i wanted to stick to the washing role. In the end of the day, i did more than just a simple washer. I was a washer, temp. order taker and temp setter. Haha. How exciting. I substituded all the roles when the people needed to go toilet. Haha. Well, washing was a tough job. At the end, i'm left with a pair of wrinkled hand and a pair of dirty shoes. Haiz. Now i need to wash my shoes again.


All i need is a simple solution. Sadly, simple things are hard to find.

Though it's a school-less wednesday, i'm still equally tired. Well, there's a series of possible reasons. One being the late nights and the other, working out in the morning with weights and house chores. Morning started well when i got really inspired and motivated by a documentary about China's military school. I got so engrossed in the documentary that i forgot about time. I was supposed to be late for the meeting, but there was a little change in time. I gave the last 10 minutes of the great documentary.


Met up with Tricia, Jerry, Kim and little baby at Jurong Point. Before Jerry, Kim and little baby came, Tricia and i were at Toys R' Us playing and looking at all the cool stuff. Damn, i kind of miss my childhood a little.


UT is waiting.

The development on pimples and ulcer are signs of lack of sleep. The short term memory and inability to think well are a signs of a near death brain. The awkward silence and busy mind are signs of a stressed mind. Painfully tormenting, it's hard to keep up with the speed of life. When one is put into an eternal rest, the world would take a pause for just one second, before getting back to where they left off.


The signs of poison is obvious yet oblivious. The struggle of dis-ownership to personal responsibilities. A foolish challenge to master perfect discipline. An act with lethal intent. An undying thirst to uncover the mysteries for a better escape.


A road to walk alone. A barren land and the horizon. An endless journey to finish. A goal in life to accomplish.


A lust for trust he desires. The destruction of masks he admires. The faceless self-portrait stares, the coward artist glares.


It all ends with a silent audience, uninterested, unamazed. Lost in the vagueness of a solo performance, nothing but a fake encore.

Tired. I'm so drained from all the late nights. And to make things worst, i have a mental race in my mind. There is so much thoughts running in my mind now. It's like a massive brain spam. It's madness.


I have guilt. I turned down 3 job offers from BJ. They seem to be in need of help yet i disagreed to help 3 times. Worst part was i was playing my PSP when i was rejecting them. Haiz. I'm so heartless.



+Loveless-
I once lost a piece of me in you,
I think i've found it and want it back.
I feel whole again,
One less to think about.
Your motivation helped kill the flames of passion.
I hope it ends here.
Now i'm Loveless again.

I finally start something for myself. I want to do up a Flash featuring some of my most hated fears, frogs. I downloaded a couple images of frogs and crop them out. That's as far as i've gone so far. Well, at least i started. Anyway, i had to stop because the image of frogs was grossing me out. The frogs were fearfully disgusting.


Something is wrong with me again. I've been eating more than usual for a while now. It's like a crazy feast. I had 2 servings for dinner last night. Today, i have eaten at least 5 "meals". I get hungry about 2 hours after every major meal. It's madness. It's probably my puberty again. I've had so many of such occasions, i've lost count of them. Haiz. How i wish i have more food with me right now.


I've been thinking about some social issues around me. I realised that peace was never alive. Well, welcome to the world.


I feel so irresponsible. I have to make decisions that i'm can't make. I'm stuck in the middle. In the end, i loss the battle because i have to give in. And that makes me irresponsible for other. Being irresponsible for the responsibility of others. The cycle never dies. In order to discontinue the cycle, one must stop. But when one stop, others see it as a privilege. And there goes. I'm always on the losing end. Born with a "must win" attitude, born in a losing environment.

Usual saturday plans. No BJ for today due to a massive family gathering. The gathering was superb. Especially the buffet. The food tasted so good, i had to go for 3 rounds. I love the duck(animal) super lot.

It's the last day i'm seeing my China relatives. They are so nice. I really like them. I want to go and stay with them in China sometime. I want to experience the environment.

I got myself couple of pencils, erasers and a SCPB!!! Super Cool Pencil Box!! I have a predicted respond of my audience. Haha. Most of you will think i'm ********. But i don't care. Haha.

The environment around me is very messy. I wish we all could just live in peace.

Drained, super tired. Slept at 1am last night. Work up at the same time for school.


DMA was madness, but fun. From 8.30am to 3.30pm, i did not leave the class except for 10 minutes. 10 minutes was spent to buy food back to class so that i can read the worksheet while eating. Another 10 minutes spent on PSP. The remaining 280 minutes was spent on the freaking problem statement. Haiz. I'm so drained, i could die anytime soon.

I did a good deed today! How amazing! I wasteddonated $1.20 to a man on wheelchair. I gave up all my coins lor. Well, it seems to be a small sum of money, but at least it's a start for me. Time to undo all my evil by doing a little good. Haha. I've got a perfect plan, i'll give up all my coins to the wheelchair gang for today. But if today is a busy day then it can't be helped. Haha.


The most exciting thing had happened in Sam's Pathetic Life's History!!! I submitted my RJ one minute before 2359. It's like 2358!!! Haha. How cool is that? Finished the damn RJ in 6 minutes. Haha. All happened because of tuition. Haha. But i can't blame anyone except the FREAKIING BUS DRIVER!!! No free ride home, so i had to talk a bus. I foresee a late RJ when a saw an empty queue at the interchange. Haha. I still can't believe it. Try beating that!!

Oh my god!! The toilet is like a gas chamber. I don't know who in the blue hell go spray so much cologne in the toilet, it can kill a dog if the dog is locked in there for more than 2 seconds. Cologne is not a air freshener or something. It's just some freaking chemical to make you not stink too badly. Dammit.


Attended some forum/talk in school awhile ago. Go there to support Jason and learn something new. It was more of a discussion thing than a talk, but it's pretty interesting. It's about social and gamer thing. Haha. Sometimes it's scary to know too much. If i were to could the number of hours spent on my PSP, i think i've fallen into the "Possible Addiction" category. Haha. I don't want to know too much.


I'm so tired. I must sleep as early as possible.

I can't believe myself. After eating 6 slices of pizza, 2 bowls of soul and 1 1/2 cup of pepsi, i'm hungry 6 hours later. In fact, the food was digested about 3 hours later. Haha. This is madness. Haha.


Tricia is really observant. I did not know that the first thing i do when i reach Kim's place is to lie on my favourite spot of the sofa and eventually fall asleep. Haha. Really interesting. Something about myself that i did not realise.


Haiz. I need to restart my MH from scratch. All those convertion was all a lie. The goes 297 hours of game play. Time to be addicted again.


Got an accidental inspiration today. Haha. It's all about lines again. I just love lines. Haha. I'll draw it when i'm free some time soon.


The time now is 3.09AM. I guess it's time to sleep before i start falling sick again. I can smell the "heatiness" in my nose now. I'm serious about that. Anyway, GOODNIGHT!!!

嗨。 今天我很累。 昨晚大概一点才睡。 今天还要很早起来。 真的很辛苦。 我要死了。 不要笑我的华语， 这件事不好笑的。 如果你笑， 你就给我记住。

嗨。 写了那么多需要那么多时间。 嗨。 好辛苦哦。 好可惜， 我知道你们要我放弃， 但是我不会放弃的。 你们去做梦吧。 哈哈。

现在好像要睡了。 今天的课很干， 越听越累。 现在第二组在present， 我想要读我驾车的书还是要看电脑影。 为什么叫电脑影呢？ 那是因为我想要在我电脑上看电影， 所以我把他叫成电脑影。 哈哈。


好了（Alright），我刚到家。 刚才去了婆婆家看我的看我的从中国来的亲戚。 他们不是我想象中的中国人。 哈哈。 他们很好， 我的表姐还满可爱的。 哈哈。 我想多见她一点。 但是只能等到星期五才能见到她。 哈哈。

今天我想用华语来blog因为公公的爸爸的在中国的兄妹的孩子要来新加坡来烦我， 所以先在要练习一点。


今天早上十点醒来因为我要去MRT拿晚上concert的票。 特佩的早。 我昨晚两点才睡。 等了我的朋友到很久。 大概等了半个小时。 拿到了票后， 我就跟老妈去巴刹买东西。


这样的写法超级无敌的难。 但是我不能放弃。 哈哈。


I've just learnt a very interesting language. It's called Chi-lish. It's what i'm using now. Though it looks really like english, you are actually reading it in chinese. That's the magic.

Anyway, the concert was great. In fact, superb! it is 超级无敌好. There is so much things that surprised me. There are some parts where it's so not my conductor's style. The finale was great. It got me all excited and i wanted to hear it again. There is this massive emotion in me and i feel so alive. That's the magic of music. For some strange reason, there is that remembrance of my band days which kind of tickle my heart. I feel that i've lost a personality that i once held so dearly on. To a certain extend, i feel like going back. But going back would means making a massive change in my life. Now everything had settled down. The many commitments are all laid down, i can't change them. A slightest poke to it would create a hurricane in my life. Haiz, i miss those old days.


Anyway, i got myself a date for the Basic Theory Test. To hell with all the crap that everyone had been telling me. There were no $150 or 1 and a half hour talk. There was only a 5 minutes conversation and a $11 transition. Anyway, when i get my license, i'm going to drive like Speed Racer. Except the fact that i won't be flooring the pedal cause that would means putting life at risk and making hospitals turn rich. I don't my friends to be a waste of space in the hospital. 哈哈.


School's calling, brain's draining. Body shaking, Samuel's dying.

Today felt like a timeless day... lack of time, too much time... time moved slowly, time moved quickly... sometimes it felt like time had frozen... so lost in this timeless world, i could not see.. what stood right before me... the answers, the solutions, the dreams, the world...


I was really grumpy today... one reason was i was woken up by my little cousin in the morning... i'm so freaking tired, i could not wish for more than a decent sleep... why am i getting deprived from the necessary? i was moaning and begging my little cousin... if i did not turn around and see him, i would be shouting away... dammit... and because of that, i got really grumpy in the morning cause once i wake up, i can never go back to sleep... it's that annoying... haiz...


Gym was really quick... had to rush myself but i managed to settle everything within all the time i had... did some stupid shit at home therefore i was late... i've reached a higher level...


Work was really timeless... time felt so stagnant... it was moving really slowly... i'm really tired... i learn that i got an e-mail compliment letter... i don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing... today, a customer complained that i was slow at order taking... can be helped dude... you joined the queue late, you have to wait... everyone made the effort to freaking wait in the queue... if you don't have patience, then don't join the queue... sacrifices are necessary in life... every decision had a sacrifice... you made the decision, you make the sacrifice and suffer the consequences... haha... before i started i had a little questionnaire with Elias... Yazid and Jake was there too... asked about how many outlets are there, my initial guess was 7... but i got the right number later... asked about the ingredients in the How's Salad, i had one ingredient less... asked about what i'll do if someone asked me to call for a cab and asked me what i'll do if the place catch fire...

Elias: What will you do if there is a fire?
Me: Run.
Elias & Yazid: HAHAHAHAHA!!!
Me: No lah, i'm just kidding. I'll tell people to run.
Elias: There is no fire extinguisher in the cafeteria, what will you do if you have to put the fire out?
Me: I'll go to the wash area and use the spray plates one to spray the fire.
*Elias points at the fire hose at the back of the cafeteria.


Tomorrow is going to be a long day... i need to meet my friend at 10am in the morning to get the tickets... i'm going to become a bus driver because a bus driver get paid to drive while a car driver pays to drive... i need to improve on my chinese cause the Teo relative from China are coming down real soon... i can't be telling them stuff like "鸡饭加饭"... they'll go back to China thinking that they have extremely stupid relatives in Singapore... haha... time to get smart... haha...

Drained.. i've not taken out my PSP for serious fun in two days now... well, guess it's all about change... haha... i'm so exhausted from badminton on wednesday... now my brain is getting drained by school... break 1 will always be the last break of the day for DMA classes... now i want to put in more effort into video editing and learn more stuff... i need to get better...


Tuition was even more brain draining... Joan wanted to do some online game education thing... and there were prizes to be won too... it's for the primary level only... first prize is Wii, second is PSP and third, i can't tell what is it from the picture... 40 questions to answer, after 2 hours we got 38 questions correct... a hell lot of research is required... before the we did the first 20 questions, i found myself doing all the work and i realised that i don't know so much... there is still so much knowledge out there to be learnt... it's so interesting though tiring... but still, i should not be doing all her work... i answered a wrong question once because i pressed the wrong button although i knew the right answer... dammit... the highest score was 16.4K, we scored 16.1K... i think we got in second... but for some strange reason, the score could not be submitted... dammit... i could have helped Joan win a PSP... haha... what a waste of effort...


I'm so tired... i'm drowned in guilt... and the weekend is going to be a busy one... haiz... hope i get enough rest and don't fall sick again next week...

The power of Language.


The beauty of Words.


Unwanted.


Unmask the Faceless.


Freedom never existed.


No point mentioning about Freedom of Speech.


Dead Motivation.


Undying Passion.


Sweet Cravings.


Never ending Flames.


Fake Facts.


Unfunny Joke.


Heartless Cries.


Poisonous Praises.


Twisted Tales.


Silent Fires.


Unfinished Business.


Finate Challenges.


Overestimated Knowledge.


Lamed.

Love and hate have been co-existing since forever.





Since everyone love and hate changes, here's one.





I need a new definition.





The world is full of cowards.






Cowards are parasites.





The modern world has unopened minds.





The closer they are, the more dangerous they are.





Time is a lethal weapon.





A painting is a reflection.





Stress is poison.





Dreams are better left in your sleep.





Greater the Pain, Better the Result.
Better the Result, Faster the Pirates.





The seen protects the unseen.





If only the world shared the same pair of eyes.

I'm so sick and tired of being sick... and i know you are sick and tired of reading about me being sick and tired of being sick... haiz... i need a solution...


Li Ching was a nice witch today...


I've found some shit online while looking through yesterday's resources... it's about some laser shoot out game thing... looks really interesting... i want to try it out... minimum 10 people... as for the pricing, i'm not too sure yet... i need to check it out... i plan to e-mail them to get more infomation... haha... anyone interested? i want to try it out for the experience... haha...


Had a super steamboat at Kim's place... the prawns were all in so i had no choice... i had to poison myself... haha... after tuition, i had a great chat with Kim... haha... sometime it's good to hear the views of an adult who would really listen...


Fuck.. the time now is 2am... i've seen a hell lot of mime videos and how to be a mime videos... now i want to be a mime... i'm working on the basics now... haha... how fun can it be?


I think my mama is trying to poison me... at such an hour, she gave me tea... haha... she said my grandpa brought it back from genting and it taste really good... and guess what, it's really good!! haha... well, with tea and mime, i'm going to practise all the way... i'm going to become the king of mime... haha...

Haiz... yet another sick day... i'm so sick of being sick... even MeiTing is counting the number of weeks that i'm sick... haiz... 3 weeks, and still counting... i need a permanent solution quickly...


Class was really fun... all we need is a couple of chords and Moses... a hell lot of funny impromptu songs... haha...


Alright... i'll PSP a little then go to bed early... goodnight...

Today was no different from the average sunday i used to have... it's all about sleep, PSP and no vomits... haha... well, one thing's different, it's lunch... i ate at Ding Tai Feng with the folks, grandma and cousin... had a superb time there despite the gloomy atmosphere... my folks had a little quarrel... i only heard the end of the conversation where my dad said "Everytime i talk to you..." to my mama before the everlasting silence... i did not catch the conversation because i was busy entertaining my cousin... my sister seemed to have gotten my ex-disease... and my grandmama and maid seems to be having a quiet time... so, i was the only active one there because my life was driven by food... drank half bowl of sour spicy soup, one plate of fried rice, about 8 Xiao Long Baos and 3 cups of tea... haha... had a superb lunch... the rest of the day is predictable... what ever you expect to happen happened... haha...


Monday is back...

I woke up in the morning to discover something that made me a happy man... MY ULCER IS GONE!!! haha... and to celebrate it, i feasted on my grandaunt's magical muffins!! haha... damn nice... so i self-declare today the first day of the return of my eating habit... haha... but still, my stomach flu still do act up a little, so i must control a little... haiz... haha...


Banana magic don't work... the secret banana scroll i received on the internet was not true... it mentioned that 2 banana can last a person for 90 minutes of strenuous exercise... i ate one before gym, so that means i should have 45 minutes of super energy... but it failed... i only felt super energised for a extremely short while... maybe taking train and walking to the gym is considered strenuous exercise... i don't know... haha... well, i'm quiting bananas... i'm going to put a banana in my ear and be a happy person... haha...

Did a new way of training... tried to push myself, but i always find myself stoning... like damn retarded... i feel like a semi-fool... haha... well, i guess i am still mentally tired... some lousy problems stopped me from going any heavier... my wrist hurts when i increase the weight... haiz... anyway, after gym, i noticed a little difference on my chest... haha... it's more squarish now... BECAUSE OF THE NEW INTRODUCTION OF THE LOWER CHEST!!! haha... it's the little part on the chest which was the hardest to grow, but it magically appeared today... haha...


Work was okay... i loved the part where i get to leave at 10.30pm, but i hate the part where i'm only getting 5.5 hours of money for the next pay... haha... so i helped out a little more and push it up to 6 hours... haha... at least 6 is a nice number... 6 is the lucky number for shamans in Africa... the people worship the number "6" like Sesame Street... haha... anyway, while working, i sudden thought crossed my mind... why i'm i being so nice? i'm so sick of being nice to people... haha... later in the evening, i felt as if i was pulling a fake smile when i was servicing the customer... strange but true... haha... anyway, i hate the NDP planes... their engines are all blasting away so loudly, it reminded me of the Ah Bengs who blast music on their motor bikes... how annying can it get? for 4 seconds, i could not hear the customer and i don't think the customer could hear me either... haha...


I'm stopping FF7... i got raped by the final battle... the last boss had 5 forms, but i could not even cross the second... dammit... one reason is that my characters are weak, but i'm playing the game for the story, not the training... so i'm giving it up... i rather not know the ending... i'm moving on to FF8 now... haha... my favourite among the Final Fantasy series... the leading female character is cute and the love story in there is really superb... the animation is great, so is the music... but the story is perfect... haha... i'm going to start tonight...


I plan to do a little exercise tomorrow morning when i wake up early enough... as for now, i'm going to finish my super late night dinner and move on the FF8... haha... goodnight...

I'm totally drained so i'll be a man of little words today...


Charlie the Unicorn is making me stupid...

Relatively fine day... rain was great, but it came at the wrong time... haha...


Class was great... super story writing, my favourite... haha... but sadly, due to some communication breakdown, things did not go as expected... in my opinion, such story writing cannot be done as a team... only the discussion before the story can be done as a team if not there will be a lot of misconception and communication breakdowns... haha...


Stomach flu strikes before the UT... i felt like i was in labour without a baby... lucky for me, the UT was simply simple... haha... except for the last question... well, at least i tried...


Dine at KFC despite my healing ulcer... majority wins... haha... and frogs and chicken don't mix... there was some crazy frog jumping at the enterance... damn scary... but a KFC staff came and took it away... i think his pet frog decided to come out for a little hop...


Larry's battery is low, so is Sammy... double dinner is great... goodnight...

What a day... i'm so sick of myself for being sick all the time... what's with me? it seems so impossible to be healthy... could it be stress? if so, what stress? this is crap... haiz...


Woke up freaking early in the morning to go down to my grandparent's place for all the crazy rituals... did only 3 things at my grandparent's place... PSP, sleep and eat... haha... and while i was over there, i got a bad flu for no reason... i think this is really stupid... i guess the gods really hate me... but i hate them more than they hate me... haha...


Upon reaching home, i had to do some crazy moving in preparation for tomorrow... the Teo family is going to Genting or something(my family is not involved)... and guess what, they had gotten a whole bus to themselves... haha... it's madness i tell you... that's how many Teo people are travelling... haha... anyway, my grandmama and one of my cozzie is not going so they will be over at my place for 4 days and 3 nights... in preparation, i had to move the extra bed from my sister's room to my grandma's room... well, with the help of my dad of course... the frame was not heavy, but holding up the weight as we travel down was a hell challenge... haha... and after that, we had to rearrange the beds at my grandmama's room... that means more carrying of beds... haha... it's a good excersie for me though... i can finally do some excersie after that massive sick episode... haha...


My grandaunt made some magical muffins, BUT I CAN'T EAT THEM!!! BECAUSE THEY ARE CHOCOLATE MUFFINS!!! AND I STILL HAVE MY FREAKING ULCER!!! DAMN!!! WHY?! i'm going all the muffins and hide them one corner, when i'm fine i'm going to eat them... dammit...


Gonna go on some drugs soon... gotta get well soon... dammit...

School was crap... watching everyone eating all the great food... dammit... i have to control my diet to ensure a speedy recovery... so unfair... i hope all the people who are eating the good food fall sick... whaha... just kidding man... i'm not that evil... whaha... anyway, the day will come when i'm all healthy and i'll be eating everything else...


Tuition was perfect... nothing can be better when you see your student putting in effort to try... haha... makes my life easier, makes me feel good... seedless grapes are great... don't you find it annoying when you have to find a place to spit the seeds after a few refreshing juicy bites? haha... Kim has the solution.. in her market... haha... she got some seedless grapes... and guess what, i've asked her to buy some for me so that i can share them... haha... after all, why do we need grape seeds in Singapore when we can't grow them here? haha... so everyone, i'll bring you the magic grapes soon... haha...


Tomorrow would be my great-grandmama death anniversary... i don't really know my purpose of being there, my mum just told me to go there and help my grandparent eat the food... haha... damn... so can i start eating all the good food tomorrow? haha... i'll find out tomorrow... anyway, as much as i respect ancestors and all, i can't help but say that all this rituals are so boring... well, i've gotten a perfect plan... haha... i'll bring my PSP and movie machine along so i can do my stuff when i'm free... haha... how perfect is that? haha...


Alright... thanks to my supreme noob-ness, i had to rely a hell lot on game walkthroughs to figure my way about the FF7 world... haha... and so happen that i'm about to further discover the beautiful story... well, have a boring wednesday... goodnight...

I should not have stayed home today... i should have gone to school despite my disease... dammit... my little cozzie came over today and made my life hell... he was pulling all sorts of stuns and i was getting really annoyed... it's not me to get annoyed so easily, but i guess today was special... haha... anyway, he got his head stuck between the gap of the staircase handrails and my dad had to save him... after that incident, i kept threatening him every time i had a feeling that he's going to do something stupid again... dammit... so hard to keep a little kid entertained... i'll never have little devils like that in the future... if i were to have kids, i'll give them my little "special" training to discipline them... i'll use my sword if i had to... whahaha...


Dammit... i'm feeling sleepy already... no medicine and all... crap... i guess i'll have an early night so that i'll be ready for school tomorrow... i better get well fast...

Dammit... i should not be alive blogging here right now... i should have died hours ago... two evil nights ago, i woke up at 4am to find myself vomiting like one mad fuck... in 4 hours, i vomited 6 times... it was terrible... i was vomiting my shroom burger, which was last night's dinner... how terrible is that... it was a mad struggle... every time i run for the damn toilet, i see my life flashing before my eyes... i should have died man... finally, day came to chase the fears... i went to see a doctor... i received a jab to stop the vomiting and some drugs to make my life better... well, i got a flu, but not just any ordinary flu... i got a BAD stomach flu... how terrible... i spent my whole sunday sleeping like some new born baby... it felt so terrible... every time i got up, i have a little urge to puke again... i had to eat very bland food and i did not have much of an appetite... forcing food down was bad because after a few spoons, i would feel a little wrong and need to lie down for a rest... well, at least i survived... as much as i hate skipping school, i had no choice... though i feel hell better, i still need another day of rest... my stomach still feel kind of funny and i still have a little fever... haiz... i'm going to miss out on all the fun in school...

Man... i had one hell of an interesting day... some days just can't be as interesting as this one... haha...


Woke up damn early in the morning despite sleeping at 2am last night... woke up as early as 9am in the morning... haha... what to do? natural alarm clock playing tricks on me... dammit... spent the whole morning PSP-ing again... what a waste of my life... haiz... anyway, played till the afternoon before leaving for gym... before leaving the house, a monster storm came and tried to spoil my plans... but too bad, i don't care... haha...

Met Raymond at the bus-stop opposite Bishan MRT... had my very first motorbike ride... i wore the helmet like a noob... haha... Raymond had to teach me how to wear it... haha... when i got on the bike, i was hell nervous... i held on very tight and my whole body was so tense... even my biceps started aching... haha... and finally, i survived the ride to the gym... when we are making a turn across a road, i was damn scared, i almost peed on my pants... haha...

Gym was madness... i did not heed YanQin's advise... she say when i over exert my body, the body will produce a harmful chemical therefore athletes die when they exercise... i guess having poison in my body once a week should be fine... haha... i had a terrible time constrain due to tuition... i rushed like shit... and i tried to push my chest a little more than usual since i had Raymond around... haha... 25kg on each side... plus the weight of the bar, i was pushing almost 60kg on my chest... haha... it's a pity i could not even push up once on my own... did 2 reps with assistance... haiz... and in the midst of the rush, i did not get to do a proper training... haha...

Biked back to Bishan MRT station and i survived again... haha... i was late to meeting Tricia... haha... tuition went out very smoothly... no bumps or whatsoever... after tuition, we had to wait a little for Kim to get some stuff before dinner... i ended up falling asleep on the couch for almost 1 hour, according to Tricia... damn... it was a super nap, but they should have woke me up... damn... i kept everyone waiting... but i really love that spot on the couch... so cooling... haha... dine at Tiong Bahru Plaza's KFC... had a monster ulcer but still ate there... haha... i just woke up and i was still feeling a little floaty and stupid... did not really converse a lot over dinner... haha... really sorry for giving everyone a silent treatment... trained home and i sat at the wrong side of the train... i was tired but i had to keep myself awake in case i miss my stop... not free ride home as mama had to attend a wake... THE END

I think YanQin is some evil voodoo witch... some days back, she told me that i looked a little heaty... and i day after some days back, i got an ulcer on the behind of my upper lip... now, i sense a coming disease...


I just finished my crazy RJ that will save only my left butt cheek... it's madness... my team did not do too well today... i did not help a lot... in fact, i did not put in effort... i feel so guilty... and here i am, trying to save my own ass... how selfish of me... dammit... i'll die with evil guilt... may i rot in the depth of the darkest point of earth...


Break 1 was fun... cracked a couple of stupidly funny jokes...


I received a warning letter from my IG... by the way, what's my IG again? oh yeah, RC... Rape CocksRed Cross... damn... i have my reasons for leaving... why don't they just sack me? make my life easier, make their life easier... why would they bother to spend time writing 1 page or so of warning when i only read the file name? haha... what a joke... do until like so professional... but professional companies don't give their staff warning letter before sacking them... haha... i don't how should i laugh... "haha" or "lol"... damn lame... i wonder if there will be a second warning letter or more after that... after all, the one i received today clearly stated "IG 1st WARNING LETTER"... please don't flood me... i'm not that free to accept and delete files like that... one more thing, how is it possible to sack a volunteer? haha... that just spells "WTF" backwards... haha...


Tuition was better... after i've shared a piece of my mind with Joan... i really hope she wake up a little... haha...


Somebody spiked my drink though i have not drank anything for the last 3 hours... haha... well, knocking out soon... and tomorrow will be a long day... like from YCK ti Bishan... that long... alright... i need a good rest now...


I want my DSLR soon...

What a day... a day filled with madness and craze... haha... super fun... well, my first day with bananas in school... haha... i ate it and got a stomachache... haha... that's the mystical power of Kong's magic banana... it's part of the process... the banana is helping me clear the toxins before making me Mini Kong... haha...


Class was fun... leave all the work to the last minute and PANIC!!! everyone(maybe just the few of us) got a little crazy... neopets was fun... haha... i got my name into the top 100 list for the game Dubloon Disaster... haha... 3080pts... tired to join the top 3 but because of my risk taking character, i killed myself in the midst of the risk... haha... at least it made my life interesting... haha...

UT was better... at least now i have an idea of how a review should look like from last lesson... skipped a 6 marks question cause i have no idea on what the question is about... no choice man... i did not know how to identify and all... so too bad for me... haha...


Dine at CWP for dinner... had one hell of a time there... as in really HELL!!! i got slapped, pinched, scratched and many other indescribable shit... had fun being crazy and making everyonoe laugh... haha...


Home, did a crazy RJ and now... next, PSP... haha... no story tonight... if you want some, inspire me of something so that i can make a new story... haha...

I don't need anyone to tell me that i'm useless, i find myself very useless today!!! i spent the whole morning PSP-ing... how productive is that? haiz... i've wasted a whole morning doing nothing... well, at least i'm getting a better understanding of the FF7 story... the story is just so good yet complex... now that i've played Crisis Core and watched Advent Children, i know the start and the end of the story... now it's time to get the juicy part of the story... haha... the story is going to last me a month or two... it better be good... haha...


Tried to multi-task a little... like an hour before i had to meet Tricia... i was downloading, sending file, playing Neopets and my PSP at the same time... how exciting... and as time got really close, i started to panic a little... and to make things worst, i had some last minute download request... haha... it just makes my life more exciting... rushed like one fool and managed to get everything done on time... haha... my banana craze had started... time to get healthy and energised... grabbed a banana before leaving the house... and guess what, i ran after Bus 86 like The Flash without feeling tired... haha... that just shows that the bananas are working... haha... in the bus on the way to AMK hub, i saw some nice girls from AJC... i did not expect studious girls to look good or whatsoever... haha... well, i know some good looking studious girls... i guess i'm stereotyping... haha... Roamed about AMK hub with Tricia for 1 hour and 30 minutes... haha...


Finally, dinner with everyone... well, not everyone, but i don't care... haha... ate beef... and guess what, the miracle curse is true... every time i eat beef, it will rain... and so it did... it happened almost immediately... how cool is that?! i should go Africa and eat some cow or something... then it'll rain and plants will grow... haha... homing was terrible, especially when the only technology you have are your handphone and your mp3... long ride home... i almost fall asleep in the bus... haha...


Want to know what motivated me to eat bananas? well, whether you like it or not, i'm going to tell my story... haha... so here goes... once upon a time, when i was still a little kid, i loved to eat bananas... and one fine day, while i was eating a banana, my grandfather came and called me a monkey because i loved to eat bananas... i did not like being called a monkey back then despite my mischievous behaviour and decided to quit eating bananas... many years later, after watching the movie King Kong, i realised that King Kong is super strong because he loved to eat bananas... and so i decided to eat bananas again... and i'm no longer worried that people would call me a monkey because King Kong is a gorilla... THE END

Sick.. sick of school... haiz... another full of drugs and sleeps... how pathetic... i've become so reliant on drugs... i'll die early... i did some good deeds yesterday and today... maybe i'll live a few hours longer...


Desires are so confusing... am i cheating myself or am i cheating the people around me? i think i need to do some super yoga-meditation and cleanse my mind before i carry on with life...